Welcome to my first ever blog post! I have been wanting to start a blog and put my writing out there for a long time. Only issue was, I lacked the confidence to do so.
I recently had a realisation that my interests in writing, and growing my own confidence, was the combination I needed to get started. So, this is a blog about confidence – my own journey in discovering and harnessing my confidence, and all things I find interesting in relation to confidence, including what makes us feel and act confidently – there’s a lot!
It is a funny thing that we hold ourselves back from what we are capable of, and interested in, because of our fears. If I really think about it – I am not even sure what I have been afraid of. Yes, it is intimidating putting my private thoughts, feelings and hang-ups out there for the world to see, and maybe judge. Yes, it is uncomfortable having to learn about how to create my own website, publish material and understand the jargon related to running a blog – I admit I had to look up the definition of a plugin!! And yes, it is a possibility that I want to do something, something I have spent a lot of my time thinking about and imagining how it would all work, but not knowing whether I will succeed or fail.
On reflection, these are not real reasons that should prevent me from doing my own blog. And they are not real reasons for me to ignore or discount any strong, driving instinct that I have about what I do and pursue.
If we let our fears determine what we do, or don’t do, in our lives, then we will rarely be able to experience new things, practice our skills, develop new ones, and grow. By stepping out of our comfort zone and into the unknown we risk facing our fears, but unless we try, we will never know what we can truly become. I feel life is about growing and now I am putting into action my beliefs and getting started on something that I want to do and can do.
How am I dealing with the issues I outlined above? Well, if I was a confident person I would have already done it. Instead, I am someone who is developing their confidence, so I firstly think and reflect to wrestle with my feelings about it and work through the problems – real or imagined.
I realise that writing a blog is all about sharing your life story – so while it may be intimidating, it is part of the experience. Not knowing about website development is able to be overcome – I’m doing my own research and seeking the help and assistance of others who know a lot about the subject. And whether this blog is a success or a failure, well that is up to me and my own definition of success. It would be a certain failure if I didn’t actually do it, so the only way I am ever going to know is by giving it a try.
The key in overcoming all of these issues is action – writing, sharing, researching, connecting and doing.
The irony in all of this is that my lack of confidence is what has delayed me from getting started. But it is through this experience, of feeling the fear and progressing anyway, that has led me to discover and connect with my cause… I am writing a blog. This blog is about confidence – my confidence, our confidence and confidence in general. I am giving it a go – and the only way I can do that is by getting started.